The Day I Got Fired on a Zoom Call — And How It Changed Everything
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It was a Wednesday. A normal one.
I had just made a cup of tea and sat down at my desk. My calendar had a one-on-one with my manager — nothing unusual. I checked my notes, adjusted my shirt, and clicked “Join.”
Within 10 seconds, I knew something was wrong.
My manager wasn’t alone. Someone from HR was on the call, silent and stiff. The manager avoided eye contact. Then came the words that shattered me:
“We appreciate your work, but due to restructuring, today will be your last day.”
I don’t remember the rest of the call. My hands went cold. I heard a buzzing in my ears. When the call ended, I just stared at the screen, frozen.
Nine Years. Gone. Just Like That.
I had been with that company for nine years. I had given it my time, my loyalty, my weekends, and pieces of my health.
And now, I was logged out of everything — email, systems, chat — as if I never existed.
No farewell email. No exit meeting. No thank you.
I was reduced to a line item in a spreadsheet labeled: “Excess Cost.”
The First Night: Numbness
I didn’t cry immediately. I just... sat. Staring.
I texted my partner: “I think I just lost my job.”
They called me instantly. I didn’t pick up.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling, playing the call over and over in my mind.
I questioned everything.
Was I not good enough? Did I miss a warning sign? Did I do something wrong?
The Week After: Silence, Shame, and Scrolling
I ignored calls from friends. I avoided family. I didn’t want to talk about it.
Every ping on my phone gave me anxiety. I didn’t want pity or advice — I wanted answers. And I wasn’t getting any.
I stayed in bed most days, scrolling endlessly. Watching other people live their lives on social media while mine had just stopped.
Unemployment wasn’t just about money.
It was about identity.
Breaking Point
The turning point came when I opened my bank app and saw I had exactly ₹3,182 (around $38) left.
That number hit harder than the firing.
I realized: No one’s coming to save me.
I have to rebuild myself — piece by piece.
The Rebuild: Small Steps from Rock Bottom
I opened a notebook and made a list. Just five things:
- Update my resume
- Apply to 3 jobs a day
- Try small freelance gigs
- Walk for 10 minutes
- Write one paragraph about my feelings
That last one, the writing — turned out to be the most healing.
I started journaling about how I felt. The shame. The anger. The fear.
And as I wrote, I slowly saw myself coming back.
Realizations That Changed Me Forever
Here’s what I’ve learned through this brutal experience:
- You are not your job. Your value isn’t tied to your salary or your position.
- People will forget your loyalty. But you shouldn’t forget your worth.
- Shame thrives in silence. Talk about your pain. Write it. Share it.
- Rebuilding starts with small steps. A 10-minute walk. One resume sent. One honest paragraph.
Finding Hope in Unexpected Places
As I healed, I started getting interviews again. Not many, but enough.
One company ghosted me. Another made me an offer that insulted my experience.
But I kept going.
Eventually, I found freelance work. Enough to cover bills. Enough to breathe again.
More importantly, I started to feel like me again.
I wasn’t fully okay. But I wasn’t broken anymore.
A Message to Anyone Who's Been There
If you’ve ever been:
- Laid off
- Ghosted by an employer
- Burned out and tossed aside
- Lost your identity in a job
Let me tell you this:
You are not alone.
You are not a failure.
You are not finished.
This might be your rock bottom — but it's also your foundation.
Why I Shared This
I wrote this not just for me — but for anyone who's quietly suffering.
Because I know what it's like to refresh your inbox hoping for good news.
To feel invisible.
To feel like your story doesn’t matter.
But it does.
What Now?
I’m still rebuilding. Still writing. Still healing.
But today, I own my story — instead of hiding from it.
If this resonated with you, I’d love to hear your story too.
Drop it in the comments. Or just let me know you’re out there.
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